Our God is Big Enough

"I don't have it in me Lord!"

"I'm not patient enough."

"I don't have the money for______."

"How are we going to______?"

"Will my children ever become mature?"

Do you ever question God with the "how to's" of life? 

It seems to come naturally for us as fallen creatures on this realm of the enemy. Oh, God is still here and God is moving mightily but we are on a battleground and we must not forget it. Our time here is for a purpose. You and I are not here to reach the American Dream or to tickle our every fancy. We are here for heavenly, eternal purposes and you and I are precious to God! He doesn't give us a mission and then leave us to fend for ourselves. He is here!

The demands of our lives are overwhelming and the unknowns are far reaching but the loving provider and Daddy tells us to bring what we have. Bring the "five barley loaves and two small fish". We say, "what are they among so many" needs? What are they God? Really. It's all I have to offer. 

He lovingly commands the multitude of needy ones to sit and rest and Jesus takes our measly offering, our dry bread, our leftovers, our weakness, our pain, our lack and He multiplies it and meets every need. He uses whatever we have and meets every need to the fullest and overflowing. 

As we offer what we have in simple obedience, He takes and uses and gives us back one hundredfold. 

What are your questions for God?

What are you lacking and you think are not enough to offer to God?

Oh, it's enough because our God is big enough to take everything and make it beautiful and fulfilling and wonderful. He meets every need; yours, mine, our children and our husbands.  

We need to surrender our "fishes and loaves" in simple obedience and we will see our great God do mighty miracles!  

Conversing much too loud for  bed time and silliness that would usually bring me to irritation I walked up the stairs. As I reached mid level I saw through our sky light a beautiful, almost three fourth's moon showing forth the glory of the sun. It was almost breathtaking.

 I completed the stair climb to the top and opened the boys bedroom door. In the dark, they hear an excited whisper, "Jadon, come here. Be real quiet. Elijah, come here. Be real quiet." When normally they would hear a warning or rebuke, they knew I had something up my sleeve. "What is it Mommy?", Jadon asks with anticipation. 

"Come look."

We stand near the banister and gaze up, past the ceiling ( I think  they thought I was going to show them a spider), we look into the heavenlies. 

"Isn't it beautiful?"

"Yea Mom. It is," they say with boyish thrill. 

We discuss the shape and marvel for just a few moments before I usher them back to bed.

"I love you Jadon."

"I love you Mom."

"I love you Elijah."

"I love You."

Silence. No more silliness. No more boyish laughter over potty jokes or whatever boys giggle about when they are over tired. No rebukes or warning needed. Just a simple reminder of things greater than ourselves, beauty of creation and beauty of our Creator. I even got an emphasized "I love you" from each of them. 

It was worth the few extra moments. It was worth sharing a moment of beauty instead of a sharp rebuke. 

Now, if only I can remember that tomorrow night when I hear those giggles and conversations past bedtime.